Since my flight to Indy is delayed by two freakin hours, I have time to update my blog! Yay!
Today is the National Day of Prayer, I personally believe that God saw that I did not pray enough, so he sent me Matt, and then Avery & Wyatt. I have never been more faithful in prayer than I am as a mother and wife. Even though most of the time it goes something like, "Dear Lord Jesus, pleaseeee give me strength and do not let me kill this man!"
Praying for me is hard sometimes because like faith, you cannot see God's plan. You pray and pray for something, and it doesn't happen. Then the opposite happens, and your faith is a little skaken. Time passes and the path is more clear and you think, huh well that makes sense now!
It also is humbling for me. I contemplate, what can I say? I mean my problems, worries and frustrations pale in comparison to the greatness of God and quite honestly sometimes I probably sound like a whiny brat!
The beautiful thing is, no matter what you say, or how you chose to do it, prayer is gratifying in itself. I feel closer to God, I calm down, I walk away from the frying pan that I want to beat my husband with and hug him. I give prayers of thanks instead, that I have this crazy life.
True story, I joined the prayer ministry at our church a year ago. Matt's last deployment was a huge struggle for me and the kids. I had been praying and praying for peace and strength and I felt like I was still being swallowed up by my life. I went to the front of the church for prayer team, and this adorable older woman was with me. I told her Matt was gone, the kids were struggling, made other small talk. When it was clear that no one was coming up for prayer, she said, "well let's say one for you and your babies." She held my hands and prayed with me. It was the most beautiful prayer, even though I don't remember the words, I remember feeling relief flow through me. I got chills. When she was done, she hugged me, I cried, she told me she was a Navy wife for over 20 years, it never gets easy and I was doing an amazing job. Her name was Kay too. I have never felt God touching me through another person so strongly as I did that day.
Ready for mind blown?
I was at prayer team a few weeks ago. I lady walked up to me with her head down. She asked me to pray with her, I said "Of course, do you have a specific prayer need?" She lifted her head, she was crying and she said yes, my husband is deployed and I am really struggling. I prayed with her, told her I was a military spouse also and have been for 8 years. I hugged her, twice. (I'm a hugger people.)
I felt the greatest sense of joy knowing that God put me in her path, just as Ms. Kay was put there for me.
Pray y'all. About everything and nothing. He always knows what you need.