Things are about to get sappy…

     I have been a little more emotional than normal this deployment. I have had a lot of unplanned stressors and I am trying to do the best I can to stay positive. As any other military spouse knows the day he leaves is the worst. No matter how many times, no matter how long he is gone, it SUCKS! So in that spirit I wrote a poem to try and express some of what I am feeling… hope you enjoy. 

This was one my Matt's first deployments after we had Avery. A 90 day polar roller deployment in Kodiak, AK! 

The day he leaves

The day he leaves,

The tears stay in until he is gone,

After our miracles are in bed, and have closed their eyes.

Only then streams of salt slip down my face,

I stare at my empty cavernous bed, which without him has doubled in size.

The day he leaves,

We loose our rock,

He is our hero, Daddy and my truest love.

The days and nights are longer,

An ache clenches my heart like an iron glove.

The day he leaves,

I dry their tears, and remind them how much he loves them.

Time will go quick, I lie.

I am now mommy, daddy, superwoman,

I can never fill his shoes as much as I try.

The day he leaves,

I pray keep him safe, bring him home, let him feel our love,

I put my faith in HIM, it is my only choice.

My angel prays too, “God keep my Daddy safe so he can save the world.”

So much conviction in her little voice. 

The day he leaves,

Is the worst day every time.

KMR – 2/9/2014